i'm 20 years old already!! :)

Salam and a very.very.very.very good morning...:D

Alhamdulillah,thanks to Allah for giving me chance to experience another year of my birthday

I’m now 20 years old!!! Yeay! Happy birthday to me! Wish Kim Hyun Jong would come and sing me happy birthday personally…teheee

There have been ups and downs, bumper and corner, and all sorts of things that I’d experienced in these years. But thanks to the endless support from my family, relatives and friends, I’m still enjoying my growing up years.  All those painful memories of mine will be the greatest motivator for me to carry on living gratefully and all those beautiful memories will be my great companion so that I won’t give up easily in the future.

I wish that I will become a better muslim, a better daughter to my parents, a better friend for my friends and a better student for my lecturers…(i'll try not to sleep during lecture time..huhu)

as a whole I WANT TO BE A BETTER ME  amin…amin..amin ya rabb

Erm…there’s another prayer…May Allah bestow me with a future husband that can guide me fiddunnya wal akhirah, one that would correct my wrong and lead me to the correct path amin…amin…amin ya rabb

Thanks to all my friends who had wish me birthday, thanks for remembering my birthday and thanks for everything you guys had done for me…thanks for being with me, I’m really glad that Allah had given me chance to know you guys…and sorry for all the wrong things I did for all the years we’ve known each other, may Allah will preserve this friendship and may we’ll together become a better muslim. A muslim that can be a role model to others and one that can show the beauty of ISLAM :)

Wish you the best dearest friends..:)

“ Ya Rabb...I’m thankful that You had given the chance for us to meet and to share our laugh and sadness together..may this friendship  will remain abadan abada...amin”

Knowing each other for 8 years and growing up together for 5 years under the same roof had allowed us to go through a lot of things together…all the bitter-sweet memories that we’ve gone through had made us who we are today as throughout the process of growing, we learnt to be more mature, we learnt to be a better person. Thanks to Dayah who had always given me advices and always make me feel confident with myself especially during debate. Being in the same team had given me a lot of chances to improve my English, you are a very good role model and I’m sure people all around you think the same thing as well… Dayah, remember when we stayed up till pass midnight for debate discussion and we had to climb up the hostel’s gate? It was fun wasn’t it?  Remember when I had fever during debate in SAKTI? Thanks so much for giving me strength because I almost gave up on the match back then… This one, I’ll bet you’ll never forget..The time when we lost all 7 rounds? You cried a lot dear…but the most embarrassing part was I burst into tears in front of the judges during the last match!hahaha…at least you cried outside the room..but thanks again, for making me believe that the three of us DAYAH, SHASHA and NAQI in the team, we’ll do better the next year, and Alhamdulillah we did..:) Dearest, I can't be there in UK to always be beside you just like you do when I'm sad, but just know that if you need someone, I'll always here for you...I believe that you are strong enough to go through all the obstacles that you have to face there...my prayer will accompany  your journey and may Allah will always protect you dearest :)

Nabilah, thanks so much for all your advices back then, and thanks for teaching me (I’m bad in math, nabilah knows it well..hehehe) Nabilah, remember that year when I had to face with a very stressful matter? Thanks so much for lending me your ears and giving me all the supports you can. It helps me a lot because you give me something that I really need- strength and someone that could understand the situation. Thanks for not letting me got drown in the problem and neglecting the future ahead of me. The most important thing is thank you for being my friend. Nabilah, there might be times when you felt things are hard for you, but always know that behind every hardship, there is always beautiful moments ahead of it.

Nabilah and Dayah, all the memories that we gather during those moments we are together  is something I treasure a lot and I pray that this friendship will last forever so that we can create more beautiful memories together..amin.. :)

My dearest friends, I know that there are times when things are hard for you guys, but be strong…please be strong. I know you guys are one tough girl that will not easily give up. When you feel like you are alone, always know that He will always be with you, listening to every dua’ you recited. When time gets tough, always know that He will always give you strength as He will never burden His servants beyond our limit…Just endure the path a little bit more. We can be happy in everything we do as long as we want it that way. And always remember that we are always here to pray for your success and happiness :)

To my dearest friends, best wishes to both of you and may you guys will always succeed in everything you do..let’s meet again later! insyaAllah… :)

“If Allah brings us to it, He will bring us through it”

Dear brothers and sisters, there’s a story I want to share…something that may INSPIRE those with wounded heart…I couldn’t remember when exactly I read this quote, but what I remember is, when I found this word, a sudden STRENGTH crept in my soul and the feeling of almost giving up flew away. On that moment, I was overwhelmed with devastation and sorrow. Nothing seems to make me happy because the thing that happened back then was a really tough one and on that time I was too young to figure out how to endure it. During that confusing period, I found these words…it’s like magical words that had awaken me up from my sadness. I whisper to myself “If Allah brings me to it, He will bring me through it, thus everything’s gonna be fine”.  I believe that no matter how hard the test is, we will manage to get through it as long as we put faith in Him.   

Allah berfirman kepada malaikat-Nya:
"Pergilah kepada hamba-Ku. lalu timpakanlah bermacam-macam ujian kepadanya karena Aku mahu mendengar suaranya"

(Hadis Riwayat Thabarani yang bersumber dr Umamah r.a)

Say NO to pills, suicide or anything ridiculous because that’ll just make things worse. That is NOT how a muslim should behave…How should a muslim behave then? The answer is in Allah’s love letter which is the Holy Quran. In Quran, we’ll find the cure of our sadness.

Al-Baqarah :155

Be sure We shall test you with something of fear and hunger, some loss in goods or lives or the fruits (of your toil) but give glad tidings to those who patiently persevere-

Al-baqarah: 286

On no soul does Allah place a burden greater than it can bear. It gets every good that it earns, and it suffers every ill that it earns. (Pray) “Our Lord! Condemn us not if we forget or fall into error; our Lord! Lay not on us a burden like that which You did lay on those before us; Our Lord! Lay not on us a burden greater than we have strength to bear. Blot out our sins, and grant us forgiveness. Have mercy on us. You are our protector; help us against those who stand against Faith”

Al-Ankabut: ayat 2-3:

Do men think that they will be left alone on saying, “We believe”, and that they will not be tested? We did test those before them, and Allah will certainly know those who are true from those who are false.

So, if we are tested, DON'T despair and  NEVER loose hope, because Allah is always be by our side...:)

*English translation is taken from ‘The Holy Quran Text and Translation’  By ‘Abdullah Yusuf ‘Ali

Why ashwaq?

Assalamualaikum wbt

I start my first entry with bismillahirrahmaanirrahim...
The reason I chosed ‘ashwaq’ as the name of the blog is because of the beautiful meaning lies behind the name. Ashwaq means  love or affection... 
because of love, we are here in this world experiencing all kinds of things in life and we care about other people around us. 

There are times when we are showered with tests and obstacles and in those times, 
we wish that, it’s just a nightmare that will end once we wake up..
although devastation and sadness overwhelmed us on that time,

we always have to remind ourselves that,

those obstacles are given to us as the sign of Allah’s love towards us..

because when we are tested, we got closer to HIM, we pray whole heartedly and we’ll try to figure out what had we done wrong and thus improve ourselves to be a better muslim..
have we ever realize how great Allah's love towards us?

instead of letting us to get carried away by the temporary happiness of the world, we are taken back to the path where we were suppose to by the tests that HE gave to us

In short, because of love and affection, we know and appreciate the value of life….. :)